binge eating disorder recovery – Overweight, Anxious, and Done

I Know It All

I say I’m not a quitter, but I’m ready to give up after a couple of weeks of little to no movement on the scale. Yes, I know the scale “lies.” I know weight fluctuates daily based on what we eat and drink, our hormones, digestion, bowel movements, and water retention. I know it’s notContinue reading “I Know It All”

Out of Love

It’s difficult when you feel like you’re doing all the “right” things and the scale just doesn’t move, or even worse, it moves in the wrong direction. In the past, this is what has led me to give up. I feel like I try so hard and I don’t get the results I want, orContinue reading “Out of Love”

When I woke up this morning, I was feeling pretty good. That was about two hours ago. Now, I can’t stop the tears from flowing as the anxiety creeps into my stomach, clamps down, and pulls at it as if trying to either rip it apart or fold and layer it on top of itself.

It’s easy to fall into past cycles, former ways of coping with these feelings, but I’ve come too far to spiral into an obsessive, worrisome fit of panic and stream of intrusive thoughts that will likely manifest into physical symptoms and pattern of googling. I won’t do it, even though part of me wants to. Continue reading “When I woke up this morning, I was feeling pretty good. That was about two hours ago. Now, I can’t stop the tears from flowing as the anxiety creeps into my stomach, clamps down, and pulls at it as if trying to either rip it apart or fold and layer it on top of itself.”

Do Something Differently

As we begin a new year, I reflect on the past one and anticipate the one ahead. What can I do differently this year to live the life I dream of? This is a familiar place, one I’ve visited many times before, one I’ve committed to living in and making my new home. But, theContinue reading “Do Something Differently”

It’s a Lifestyle

Today marks 58 days of my recovery from Binge Eating Disorder. 58 days of not bingeing, of not turning to food for consolation, for comfort, or for familiarity. 58 days of feeling my emotions, of actually facing and sitting with the anxiety that surfaces when I’m not using donuts and chips to stuff it backContinue reading “It’s a Lifestyle”